back to reality

Went in to work to let them know I may be late for results day because of fracture clinic appointment. Sarah has gone, no surprises . Went in to town with C booked a hair appointment for two with Sian, wonder what she thinks of my handy work? Got pissed of with C waiting around, silent journey home. Had a three hour disco nap then C helped me pack. All done pretty soon as I'm traveling light with my recovering dislocated shoulder. Back into town to the tiger lounge. All night long I was looking at other women and wondered if they fancied me as much. Kept avoiding touching C. Think I'm going to get hit one day by a jealous boyfriend! Came home and felt very horny. Had sex, tired and drunk then sleep.

returned home.

Returned home from the Greek Islands. Sat next to a man on the plane who has an awful trip to contend with. He has to attend the funeral of his ex wife with their 13 year old daughter, his wife had committed suicide. Nothing resolved internally for me. Chloe is a wonderful woman but I don't feel any passion for her. She adores me, how do I resolve this, how do I end it? I will miss her and we have a comfortable life, but its safe I want more. It will devastate her.